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re: Online blogger and dietician posts suicide note to her blog, then hangs herself

Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:52 am to
Posted by atxfan
Member since Jul 2004
3526 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:52 am to
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You completely made this up. There is no evidence of that.



It's my opinion so yes, I made it up. I don't know anything about this person outside of these few paragraphs but she talks a lot about food as the source of most of the things that she likes and then talks about late nigh junk food binges. I'm not saying that an eating disorder was what caused her to end her own life, but binges are certainly a big part of eating disorders.
Posted by FieldMink
Fort Worth
Member since Jul 2017
797 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:53 am to
This is sad. And yet I dont understand what drives someone to this point. Especially someone such as this young woman who, from what I can tell, was seemingly good. I've been sad, depressed for a small time, but never to such a point to feel like "Why am i here?". And that might just be my lack in understanding what causes it (long term depression), being a religious person - praying through my hard times, or maybe how I was brought up in pushing thru whatever eats at me. Especially when you're allowed so many freedoms in America compared to being raised in a 3rd world country.

Granted, coming from a broken situation or just a fricked up one later on in life, I can almost understand "why should I keep living". I'm curious to know what led her to this point. Was she wondering "Why am I living this well while someone somewhere else isn't?", "Why do i deserve it?". Was she detached because she just didn't care for that certain situation or circumstance? Would rather chill on her own? Maybe needed that one person in her life to fullfill her?

Maybe i'm thinking too deep/far into it but i'm more of a logical thinker in terms of things. Thats the engineering in me. Has anyone else been through this on their own?
Posted by 777Tiger
Member since Mar 2011
73856 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:54 am to
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If it's not asking too much, what got you to change your view? You don't have to answer if you don't want to.


not at all, just a general reconditioning of myself, and as much as I hate to admit it, some of it is reading the personal testimonies of people that have struggled with depression on the OT, as well as personal experiences, I'm really trying to be less of a harsh, judgmental, prick, but I'm here to tell you, the struggle is real!
Posted by Jim Rockford
Member since May 2011
98182 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:54 am to
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Did they remain married? Hard to fathom that.





Still married. The husband was their stepfather and went way above and beyond the call of duty. He's kind of a hero, tbh.
This post was edited on 2/1/19 at 11:03 am
Posted by nvasil1
Hellinois
Member since Oct 2009
15896 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:54 am to
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All this surface- oriented talk of various super- awesome ethnic food ? That’s a level of spiritual and intellectual vacuousness that saddens me . No wonder she feels so empty. She may actually Be empty . And the weird throwaway line to her Mom and/or other human beings? It’s sad on every level.

I was thinking the same thing. She said a lot without saying much, so when she remarked in the first sentence that this note "finally feels right", that was likely very true in regards to her emptiness. I felt kind of icky reading it.
Posted by TheCaterpillar
Member since Jan 2004
76774 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:55 am to
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she talks a lot about food as the source of most of the things that she likes and then talks about late nigh junk food binges. I'm not saying that an eating disorder was what caused her to end her own life, but binges are certainly a big part of eating disorders.


She's a food and travel blogger!

Posted by Slagathor
Makin' jokes about your teeny tiny
Member since Jul 2007
37811 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:55 am to
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what got you to change your view? You don't have to answer if you don't want to.


I'm also a recent convert to that way of thinking. I read a blog post following Kate Spade's suicide.

She said that she hoped KS was remembered not for the suicide, but being a talented person and a good mother. She pointed out that KS was sick, and that sickness truly made her feel that suicide was the best thing she could do for her daughter. Her world revolved around her daughter... No one would intentionally hurt their only child like that. That really stuck with me.
Posted by East Coast Band
Member since Nov 2010
62773 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:56 am to
My wife (no pics) has always been slim her whole life and looks attractive, especially for her age.
However, she's always had this self conscious issue that she is "fat" or unattractive.
Completely not the case. I tell her this, others, you can tell, find her attractive. Yet, she doesn't let that change her mind.
A little like this photo.

So, while we can not understand why the girl in the OP took her life, I can see a little bit as to what she was feeling
Posted by el Gaucho
He/They
Member since Dec 2010
52973 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:56 am to
Chicks my age should take note

God made you to be barefoot and pregnant not a travel blog cat lady
Posted by td01241
Savannah
Member since Nov 2012
22847 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:59 am to
Depression and suicidal ideations are no joke and people can hide it for years and years. I have dealt with this and I think I just lack the constitution for suicide but I totally understand her not wanting to feel like shite anymore.
Posted by Slagathor
Makin' jokes about your teeny tiny
Member since Jul 2007
37811 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:59 am to
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However, she's always had this self conscious issue that she is "fat" or unattractive.
Completely not the case. I tell her this, others, you can tell, find her attractive. Yet, she doesn't let that change her mind.


Well, have you noticed how many posters pointed out that it was odd for such a beautiful girl to do this? As if a less attractive person would have more reason to want to?

Even without mental illness, society conditions us to have external sources of self worth.
Posted by ibldprplgld
Member since Feb 2008
24987 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:01 am to
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So after reflecting on the sum of her whole life, all she can come up with is a list of vapid, shallow bullshite?

I'm not surprised she felt her life was meaningless and that she might as well kill herself. Obviously her life WAS meaningless. Yeah that's harsh and mental illness sucks but sorry not sorry.

And you've proved to the board you don't understand how debilitating depression can be. It impedes everything. If she had sought treatment, she may have realized there is more worth to her life than what she listed. She wasn't seeing things through a clear lens. She obviously wasn't well when she wrote this as she subsequently hung herself.

Compassion: you should try to have some.
Posted by LNCHBOX
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Member since Jun 2009
84082 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:01 am to
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Well, have you noticed how many posters pointed out that it was odd for such a beautiful girl to do this? As if a less attractive person would have more reason to want to?

Even without mental illness, society conditions us to have external sources of self worth.



Yep this is the kind of shite that is scary for me, especially as the father of a little girl. HS kids right now are already brutal, and I can only imagine what it will be like when she gets there.
Posted by RogerTheShrubber
Juneau, AK
Member since Jan 2009
260404 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:01 am to
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society conditions us to have external sources of self worth.



It sounds like she checked all those boxes off the list and still felt empty. I believe that's typical. There's far more to life.
Posted by SlowFlowPro
Simple Solutions to Complex Probs
Member since Jan 2004
422428 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:02 am to
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Well, have you noticed how many posters pointed out that it was odd for such a beautiful girl to do this? As if a less attractive person would have more reason to want to?

Even without mental illness, society conditions us to have external sources of self worth.

it's not about "self worth"

if she felt that detached, it's a much bigger "fall" than a legit uggo nobody wants to be around. pretty people are not often lonely b/c they're pretty. it's not some indictment on her feelings of self worth.
Posted by TygerTyger
Houston
Member since Oct 2010
9201 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:03 am to
With all due respect, your friend is clueless.

Yes, faith is a valuable and powerful thing. But when the multitude of chemicals in your brain aren't playing well together, no amount of praying is going to fix it.

Ask your friend if they pray to fix a flat tire, or a broken leg.

Yes, there's a psychological part to it, but it's also a chemical issue.

Someone very close to me suffers from bipolar disorder. They have a great routine of exercise, sleep, meditation, positive thinking, praying, and self awareness. All of that helps.

But without the addition of meds, they wouldn't be stable. It's just the shitty hand some people have been dealt.
Posted by fr33manator
Baton Rouge
Member since Oct 2010
124168 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:03 am to
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God made you to be barefoot and pregnant not a travel blog cat lady



You jest, but there’s a lot of truth to this.

Posted by WestCoastAg
Member since Oct 2012
145153 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:04 am to
and, as already stated, when these people feel nothing, they usually feel worse when they start accomplishing things and achieving what other people would perceive as life goals and still feel nothing after. in many ways, for people who suffer from crippling depression as this woman was, having a "good" life and being "attractive" probably made her depression much worse
This post was edited on 2/1/19 at 11:05 am
Posted by fr33manator
Baton Rouge
Member since Oct 2010
124168 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:04 am to
Redhead?
Posted by idlewatcher
County Jail
Member since Jan 2012
79083 posts
Posted on 2/1/19 at 11:05 am to
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By all indications she was a terrible person.


wtf
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