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Online blogger and dietician posts suicide note to her blog, then hangs herself
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:22 am
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:22 am
Tragic story, but I found it interesting to read her suicide note. I often wonder how people get to the point that taking their own life is the only option to end the pain.
Link to her blog
Link to news story
quote:
I have written this note several times in my head for over a decade, and this one finally feels right. No edits, no overthinking. I have accepted hope is nothing more than delayed disappointment, and I am just plain old-fashioned tired of feeling tired.
I realize I am undeserving of thinking this way because I truly have a great life on paper. I’m fortunate to eat meals most only imagine. I often travel freely without restriction. I live alone in the second greatest American city (San Francisco, you’ll always have my heart). However, all these facets seem trivial to me. It’s the ultimate first world problem, I get it. I often felt detached while in a room full of my favorite people; I also felt absolutely nothing during what should have been the happiest and darkest times in my life. No single conversation or situation has led me to make this decision, so at what point do you metaphorically pull the trigger?
I’m going to miss doing NYT crosswords (I was getting really good). That one charcuterie board with taleggio AND ‘nduja. Anything Sichuan ma la, but that goes without saying. A perfect plate of carbonara (no cream!). Real true authentic street tacos. Cal-Italian cuisine. Hunan Bistro’s fried rice. The pork belly and grape mini from State Bird Provisions circa 2013. Popeye’s of course. Bambas too.
I’m also going to miss unexpected hugs. Al Green’s Simply Beautiful. Cherries in July. Tracing a sleeping eyebrow. Smoking cigarettes. The Golden Gate Bridge at sunset. That first sip of iced cold brew in sticky August. Making eye contact with people walking down the street. When songs feel like they’re speaking to your soul. Jeopardy. Saying I love you. Late night junk food binges. Shooting the shite. And especially the no-destination-in-sight long walks.
No GoFundMes, no funeral, no tributes, no doing-too-much please. All I ask now is for you to have one delicious (I mean a really really great) meal in my honor and let me go, no exceptions.
It’s selfishly time for me to be happy and I know you can get down with that. Please try to remember me as a whole human you shared memories with and not just my final act. This is not your fault. It’s not exactly easy for me either, I’m here for you. I love you. I always have and I always will, I promise. Shikata ga’nai.
I’m coming home, Dad. Make some room up on that cloud and turn the Motown up.
I’m really sorry mama.
Always, TLC
Link to her blog
Link to news story
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Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:24 am to toosleaux
WHI if she took her pills
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:24 am to toosleaux
guess that's why the long face
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:25 am to toosleaux
Good God. People look and seem like they have it together. And then...zam.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:25 am to toosleaux
Really fricked up way to leave your mom the note. Nothing like 10,000 plus readers finding out before your widowed mother finding out.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:26 am to toosleaux
sad
"Matter of fact" suicide notes are very disturbing.
"Matter of fact" suicide notes are very disturbing.
This post was edited on 2/1/19 at 10:27 am
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:26 am to toosleaux
That's a really confusing and sad note to read...just why??
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:27 am to toosleaux
It's terrible that she takes the time to list the things she's going to miss (the things worth living for) and then kills herself anyway.
Depression is a horrible disease.
Depression is a horrible disease.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:27 am to toosleaux
The only one I ever read was matter of fact, almost detached. Just how he wanted his property disposed of and that he didnt want a funeral. No explanation, no apology.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:27 am to toosleaux
Very sad, and likely something that could have been prevented. For those that have never experienced detachment, it can be an extremely frightening experience. The inability to feel or express emotion is about as scary as it gets when it comes to depression symptoms.
This post was edited on 2/1/19 at 10:31 am
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:27 am to toosleaux
thats rough to read
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:28 am to toosleaux
Attractive girl. Sounds like she may have spent too much time in cosmopolitan city areas.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:29 am to toosleaux
It starts off reading like she can't find joy in life and then she lists off a ton of things that seem to bring her joy. Overall, it sounds like she has an eating disorder or some body image issues, but she's skinny and cute. Really strange but not as depressing as expected.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:30 am to toosleaux
That is just bizarre. She lists all the things she loves about life- and then ends her life?
Everyone has problems, but damn....This is never the correct answer. I wish she'd have at least sought help before making her existence end.
Everyone has problems, but damn....This is never the correct answer. I wish she'd have at least sought help before making her existence end.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:30 am to toosleaux
She's Chinese?
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:31 am to toosleaux
quote:
I realize I am undeserving of thinking this way because I truly have a great life on paper. I’m fortunate to eat meals most only imagine. I often travel freely without restriction. I live alone in the second greatest American city (San Francisco, you’ll always have my heart). However, all these facets seem trivial to me. It’s the ultimate first world problem, I get it. I often felt detached while in a room full of my favorite people; I also felt absolutely nothing during what should have been the happiest and darkest times in my life.
Achievers who rarely struggle are probably at the high end of suicides. Pain teaches more than success ever will.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:31 am to ThatMakesSense
The only true freedom we have in life is the right to take our own lives. Everything else is conditional.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:32 am to toosleaux
Depression and mental illness is a terrible thing. It's still such a mystery to our current scientific abilities.
It's hard to diagnose, hard to treat, and hard to break the fricked up societal stigmas that still exist here in the 21st century.
If you have even some of the thoughts/feelings that she speaks about in this note, SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP!
You're not alone, and you aren't the only one who has gone through this.
It's hard to diagnose, hard to treat, and hard to break the fricked up societal stigmas that still exist here in the 21st century.
If you have even some of the thoughts/feelings that she speaks about in this note, SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP!
You're not alone, and you aren't the only one who has gone through this.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:33 am to gadknot
quote:
good looking depressed girls are my fetish.
she's not the only one hung right now.
Trash post is trash.
Posted on 2/1/19 at 10:34 am to toosleaux
Nothing like a good suicide note to get your day started
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