So, I’m now on food stamp(update in OP)

In the OT’s opinion, am I a no good piece of shite loser(I feel like I am).

I have a good job and I’ve always worked. The problem is that I had 4 mini strokes the first week in September and haven’t been able to work since. I tried but the dr won’t release me. I had surgery at the start of this month to correct the problem and they couldn’t do it. I go next week to Birmingham so another dr can give it a shot. Best case scenario, the second surgery works and ’m out another 4-6 weeks. I didn’t want to apply for help, but I’m a single father of 3 and the money I have saved up will only last so long. I haven’t told my kids bc I’m embarrassed. Also, I don’t want them to worry. It’s been tough enough on them as it is. So, do I suck?

(Update)First off, thanks for all of the encouraging replies. It def put things into perspective. Pride can be a bitch. I’m coming to you now for prayers form those that believe and a you got this from those that don’t. I’m back in Birmingham for another surgery this week. Hopefully it’ll go well bc the last time I was here the Dr informed me that I need to find a new career. He said he won’t release me back into the field of construction regardless of the surgery outcome. That was his reply to me asking for a release for light duty. He told me I can’t lift over 5lbs for the near furure. I told him I always wanted to sit and pee and now I have an excuse. He didn’t find that funny. I was just trying to use humor to make the situation a little easier on myself. There’s nothing like being told to make a career change at the age of 41 when you’re a single father of 3. I just keep telling myself things could be worse and to stay positive. I’ll try and update as the week goes. Thanks again.