re: Merry Christmas to everyone I love the ot and everyone here, 2022 is about living

Get help. NOW. I watched my uncle slide into a deep depression due to health issues and he felt worthless. He took his life inside he and my aunt's home. I was the first there and watched as he took his last breath and died after a .357 to the chest. My aunt has been lost ever since. Her whole life was turned upside down. They never had children, so she is literally alone. My family does all it can to occupy her, but she's never going to recover. Get help for those that love and care for you. They will ultimately be the ones who will have to live with your decision. And Trust me, it's no way to live.

As someone who had a close friend commit suicide, I can tell you that 15 and a half years later it still hurts. I still have dreams about him, I still think of him EVERY SINGLE DAY, and I still miss him dearly. Survivors of suicide hurt in a very different way than after the death of a family member who was sick. It’s different. Very different! It leaves a hole the that can never be filled and answers that will never be given. Questions that lead to even more questions, that then lead to even more heartbreak.

Do not do it and seek help. You may think people will eventually get over it but they won’t. Suicide is a tragedy that falls into a whole other category for survivors. You have a daughter - you have an obligation to get better and teach her to be humble by admitting you need help and seeking help. She needs you now and in the future.

I’m going to say a prayer for you.

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Im just tired of living every decision I make is wrong,

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naaa man, mistakes and stupid decisions happen. I’m living proof we can bounce back from the dumbest of dumbest mistakes. But making a decision like suicide would be the one and only bad decision that can’t get a mulligan.

Well said

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TheWalrus

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You as well, seek help. Call the number. It’s a step in the right direction and will build a path to freedom from the thoughts you’re having. Don’t stop trying.

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I think stuff hits harder during the holidays. If any of y'all think you don't have anyone to talk to..

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Find a good therapist or social worker quick. They can really help. If necessary and recommended, consult with a psychiatrist as medicine may be able to help.

There are things you can do to help you get past feelings of hopelessness. Do it for yourself and especially for your daughter. She needs you.

Wake up tomorrow. You’ll be in a somewhat more coherent state. Spend the day free of mind altering substances. Reflect on the day. Ask yourself how you could have made the day more fulfilling. Make a list of those observations. Wake up the next day. Eat a nice breakfast. Look over the list. Accomplish some of the items on the list. Rinse and repeat.

Call anybody. I’ve been there.

I understand.

It hurts.

But there is hope. Love your daughter and you can love yourself. She needs you more than anyone in the world right now

You guys aren’t alone. Just on the Health board there’s been several these last couple of weeks. It can be a tough time of year for many people and the world seems upside down right now. Please talk to someone. A ton of people have gone through what you are going through.