re: Merry Christmas to everyone I love the ot and everyone here, 2022 is about living

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every decision I make is wrong

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Do the opposite of you natural instinct.

But more importantly get professional help.

Daughters need their dads more than you know

You can rise from this!

The fact that I see you’re online is a HUGE win. Lord made us as providers and protectors of our families, loss of job feels as though you’re failing(personal experience not judgement).
It’s a feeling, those pass, keep going and feelings will catch up. None of us is the sum of our mistakes, that’s a lie. PLEASE speak to someone trusted now as many have said. You’ve mentioned your daughter saying she loves you, she didn’t say I love your old job or things you get me she loves YOU.
My man, you’ve got anonymous people from all walks of life and different parts of the world telling and showing you love. Receive it.
I pray that God blesses, keeps and showers mercy on you and your family spiritually, emotionally and physically this day and all the MANY days of you/your life/lives.

It's time you answer some questions for everyone. These questions and answers can lead to clarity for all to help and a brighter future for you.

Where do you live?
How old are you?
Are you married?
If not, who do you live with?
What line of work did you lose your job in?
What type of wrongs in your past haunt you?
Do you drink? Any drugs you resort to?

No one is a bigger sack of shite than me. I’ve made numerous mistakes and often the same mistake over and over. I promise God that I won’t do X again, but sure as the sun im back to my mistakes. You’re right, suicide is the easy way out. For YOU! It’s the beginning of generational issues for everyone else though. Do you want ur daughter living a life of unnecessary guilt if u chose that ending? Do u want the rest of ur family to continually mourn? I heard once that suicide is like a terrorist bombing. Those closest to the one who kills him/herself are going to get destroyed.
I’m the worst human to ever exist, but the sun still comes up each morning. God still loves me. And if I can make it, anyone can make it.
Get help. Get God. He knows everything you have done but still loves you.
Don’t destroy ur life and those around u just bc ur tired of fighting.
And find some perspective. Go look at the patients at a children’s hospital. They’d give anything to be like u and me. Don’t throw it all away.

Cmon brother. I know it’s tough but a lot of mistakes can turn into a lot more mistakes. Some you can’t take back. Do what’s right and turn it around now. Get help

Hang in there, man. As long as you and your daughter are physically healthy, that's already a huge win. Be grateful for it. I work with a couple of guys who have gone through hell with their kids' illnesses and disabilities.

Holidays are always a weird time. Hope everything looks up for you next year.

andersBlake you are loved, whether you know it or not. if you don't want to call a hotline, go here the chapel br and I guarantee you will be loved. Come Christmas Eve. i know this is an awkward way to communicate, but bring the fam... there's nothing you have done...nothing... that will stop the love of Christ for you. I'm living proof of that.

Please don’t. I know that feeling and those thoughts can be very intrusive. But don’t do it. Your daughter would grow up without you and you would miss so much. Fight for your life and please get help. It can get better.