I Could Use Some Uplifting Words and Prayers **UPDATE in OP"

Been a rough time for me and my family over the last 2 months. I lost both of my grandfathers in December unexpectedly...COVID. Follow that up with my best friend and co-worker who died suddenly at 46 years old 2 weeks ago. Followed by my sons best friend dying in a tragic car accident last week...he was 13 years old. Followed by one of my former all time favorite baseball players (I was a high school baseball coach for 13 years) dying over the weekend in an absolutely tragic auto accident as well. This last tragedy has really broken my spirits. There is a sense of anger and why that's filling my heart. I don't want to go down that hole, but its just overwhelming me. It's made me question a lot of things spiritually. I dunno, i have never asked for anything like this before in my life, but i come to this site as an escape. I don't wish this on anybody. Trying to hold it together and explain all of this to my kid has been very difficult. Any positive advice would be appreciated...Thank you in advance!

EDIT:

I went to a duel candlelight vigil that our community held last night and got to hug a bunch of my former players. It was much needed. The emotions were so real and raw for those kids. Man, to be able to embrace them and cry with them was much needed. It was beautiful to see complete strangers sharing in the grief of these two young men. I was asked to say a few words and i simply said that "i never taught this kid anything"..."he only needed to be told do things once and that was it"..."if anything, i learned from him"...and then i told everybody to "close their eyes, be silent, in time, when you're all thinking about them in your own way, they will come back and speak to you"..."for some, it may be a day, a week, a month or even a year, but make no mistake, they will speak to you"...and i just let everyone sit there with their eyes closed in silence for a few minutes. I ended with "we love you, we miss you already, but we will never forget you". It was a giant piece of weight lifted off of my chest being able to say that with my arm around my kid and hundreds of family, friends and complete strangers grieving in their own way. I appreciate ALL of your kind words. I absolutely used them to sit in thought and ponder about what i was going to say. So in many ways, you all were a part of it...part of the healing process for my community and i thank you all from the bottom of my heart for that!!