One of the worst COVID developments

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They are absolutely the most rediculous morons on the planet.

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Closed captioning is a thing

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closed captioning is available if you are sitting in the press conference?

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My parents force me to come over and have meals with my entire family regularly. I’m a college student and am reliant on my parents financially. It terrifies me what stepping too much out of line will do.

I have tried proposing an alternate activity or a change in the frequency (every two weeks vs. every week, my non-CC sister agrees, but my dad refused), faking that I had plans (I am not allowed to skip breakfast unless I am physically away from them), and drinking through a SIP valve instead of taking off my mask and eating. The amount of pressure and criticism I receive for my efforts to fight back is enough for me to settle on masking but removing it to take a bite while holding my breath and putting it back on.

I get comments about wearing a mask so often from them, and while I am firm that the mask stays on, it is really getting to me. I’ll break down crying every time I visit them because of how every single little comment and criticism from them feels like the end of the world.

I lied to them and said that I need to mask in the first place because my rheumatologist told me to. My dad now wants to come to my doctor’s appointments to “find out why” my doctor has said this and “get to the bottom of things”.

I don’t want to stop taking precautions. I’ll fight for as long as possible to mask. I did not do it for the longest time and just started in February/March, so the fact that I am doing it is huge. I fully recognize that the emotional pain I feel now will pale in comparison to what it will be if my lupus gets worse, or if I develop another condition like ME/CFS from a COVID infection, and I have an immense amount of privilege to be feeling this way in the first place.

I have a CC therapist and am trying to figure out what to do with her. I am also in local CC spaces/am engaged with the mask bloc in my area. I don’t attend events or hang out with other CC folks because I don’t want my high risk behavior to put others in danger, especially the disabled folks who cannot afford another infection.

But, I’m just tired. And COVID is not going anywhere anytime soon. With this new wave being more contagious, I am losing hope that I am going to be able to avoid an infection this season. The stress of everything has caused me to have a flare up. It has degraded my mental health to the point where I frequently question whether life is worth living or not.

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Is the dumbass looking sign language retards that pop up during certain press conferences. They are absolutely the most rediculous morons on the planet.

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