re: Been dealing with depression for 10 years. Went to counseling today for the first time.

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Theoretically, I SHOULD be happy. I have a great wife, awesome kids that love me, a thriving business that provides a comfortable life for my family, good health, a really awesome group of IRL friends, etc etc. Still, other than seeing my kids having a good time, nothing, and I mean nothing, makes me happy.

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Aside from having my own business part I could have written this paragraph two years ago when this stuff hit me. Been some ups and downs over the last couple of years but mostly ups and it can and God willing will get better. Glad you are seeking help and I pray that you find it. God speed brother. Life is too short and precious to suffer in silence.

Damn, I hope everything gets better. I’ll miss your arse and be hoping you get better. If you’re ever in Dallas and wanna grab a beer or play a round lemme know.

Good on ya man. I put off for years going to see someone about my issues, denying I had PTSD/depression. I didnt wanna be labeled as one of "those guys" having served during the war. I felt I was doing ok dealing with it all till I slipped one day in the rain and went face first into the edge of an open car door,busted my head wide open. Since then, I cant explain it but ive been having panic attacks and just really feeling like all of the things ive bottled up for over a decade finally refused to be held under the surface anymore. Its scary shite, especially the first time it happens. I thought I was fkn dying. Your body starts sweating, heart racing, my left side went numb. I honestly thought I was gonna have a heart attack and die right there. I go to the Dr and they couldnt find anything physically wrong with me. Said it was all in my head, the mind can only take so much before it reboots with zero warning. In my own attempt to get through it, Ive removed myself from stress the best I can, finally had my shoulder surgery and got back in the gym. So far so good.

Take it one day at a time man.

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Well you've checked the boxes and it's still not working. Not surprising. Those are for safety and comfort, not purpose or self actualization.

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dont make me examine myself you a-hole

Damn, FIL really did a number on you huh, Tyga?



JK man. Best wishes in your recovery.

Wish you the best. When I was drinking, I was very depressed. It was a vortex.

More bourbon to ease the depression so the depression got worse, which meant more booze....round and round.


Treatment was my saving grace. And the 12 steps.

One of my favorite quotes that still resonates with me, I heard from Lou Holtz back in the day: “ motivation is simple. Eliminate those in your life who aren’t motivated”

That can apply to other things besides people. There are some really great books around minimalism. And I don’t mean having your house look like IKEA or some broke college kid. It’s just about having too much stuff in and around your house, or in your life.

Friends who you think are friends can often turn out to be a toxic piece of your life. After treatment, I had to have some very difficult discussions with people who I thought were my friends. I have cut so much fat out of my life between having stuff, wanting stuff, and having this huge group of people I thought I would always need to hang out with. I got off of Facebook, although I still post on Tiger droppings

Do you have a hobby that you devote time to and get satisfaction from or do you spend your spare time sitting on your arse feeling sorry for yourself? Not trying to be a dick, but a lot of people do the latter with zero effort to pursue anything.

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Good on ya man. I put off for years going to see someone about my issues, denying I had PTSD/depression. I didnt wanna be labeled as one of "those guys" having served during the war. I felt I was doing ok dealing with it all till I slipped one day in the rain and went face first into the edge of an open car door,busted my head wide open. Since then, I cant explain it but ive been having panic attacks and just really feeling like all of the things ive bottled up for over a decade finally refused to be held under the surface anymore. Its scary shite, especially the first time it happens. I thought I was fkn dying. Your body starts sweating, heart racing, my left side went numb. I honestly thought I was gonna have a heart attack and die right there. I go to the Dr and they couldnt find anything physically wrong with me. Said it was all in my head, the mind can only take so much before it reboots with zero warning. In my own attempt to get through it, Ive removed myself from stress the best I can, finally had my shoulder surgery and got back in the gym. So far so good. Take it one day at a time man.

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Holy shite. I feel like I’ve experienced the same thing as you (except I’ve never been in the armed forces)

In 06, while I was in college, I had a pretty serious concussion, my fourth one, while playing football. Never went to the doctor or really told anyone about it.. from that point on, I started getting the same symptoms that you described (sweating, racing heart, medical paranoia, etc).. I’ve been told over the years that I had depression, panic attacks, etc.. it really sucks man. To this day, I still have anxiety attacks and tbh, it really has affected me in ways that I never thought it would. I was on medication for about a year to help curb the attacks, but I really don’t like being on prescription drugs so I’ve chosen to fight this shite by myself. Sometimes I can go for a week or two with nothing happening, but sometimes it can be unbearable. Had one happen to me in a deer stand a week or so ago.. thought I was dying for no reason at all


Feels weird talking about it tbh, it’s hard to find people that really understand how I feel. Sorry that you deal with it too, but it’s a little comforting knowing they’re not gonna name a disease after me . Thought I was the only one lol

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Pics of the wife would be cathartic.


Just saying.

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You should listen to him. He's pre-med