re: The moment you realized that your time here was getting short?

When I had my stroke 5 years ago. Luckily I've recovered pretty well but the die is cast now, I'll have another one, it's just a matter of when.

The death of Eddie VanHalen.

Relative to the age of the universe and the age of the planet we live on, our lives aren't even a millisecond in time.

Humans in general have only been here for a few seconds, to put it relative to how we would understand time.

I mean, I've always had the thought that time here is fleeting at best having a brother that passed in our 20s. So the mortality check came early for me.

I think my Mom passing 5 years ago (I was 39), was a big one.

Age 49. Colorectal cancerous pylop. Grateful that I caught it early and had it removed. Did not require radiation or chemo.
Avg life expectancy of around 79 years, I suddenly realized I was quite possibly in the 3rd quarter of life.
Decided to stop worrying about shite I could not control and stuff that doesn’t affect me.
Became more involved in my Catholic faith. Retired when I reached age 59 because life ain’t all about working.
Instead of worrying about dying, I focus my efforts on living. Enjoy the grandkids, stay active in the community, a lot of traveling, became a Knight of Columbus, made more friends and enjoy time with lifetime friends.
Parents lived to age 85 (mom) and 92 (dad). With continued good health I hope to live above the 79 year average.
I can’t control the day I will die but I make sure I live each day to the fullest in case my expiration date in tomorrow.

Came to a realization recently that my dad was only about 10 years older than me when he passed.


a perspective I’m not thrilled having.

Sixty Nine
All my bloodwork numbers look good but my neck and back are shot.

I also realize most people don't have any clue as to how old they are and how much time is left. They intend on being the same at 70 as they were at 60 and 50. But to believe that in getting to 80 things will be hunky dory well that is a delusion. Gotta get whatever bucket items remain to be done in early 70s. But some people will be fine into their 80s.
As a side note, take notice as to how many people die in their 70s?

When I turned 50 (15 years ago), I realized that my proverbial roller coaster had stopped climbing the steep angle, and that it had begun to fall.

Fortunately the drop has been slow to this point, but there's no predicting tomorrow and not if, but when, it will speed up.

I hope I'm able to see my grandsons grow up, get married, and start their own families, all while being in my right mind. That decision, though, is up to The Lord in Heaven and his schedule.

26rh birthday