Been dealing with depression for 10 years. Went to counseling today for the first time.

I’ve reached a low-point. Been dealing with depression for about 10 years. Never been treated medically because I was afraid that I would be labeled. I don’t discuss it with friends or family because I don’t want to be seen as weak. Never attempted suicide, but it has crossed my mind more than a few times.

Theoretically, I SHOULD be happy. I have a great wife, awesome kids that love me, a thriving business that provides a comfortable life for my family, good health, a really awesome group of IRL friends, etc etc. Still, other than seeing my kids having a good time, nothing, and I mean nothing, makes me happy.

Last Saturday night at about 3:30, I woke up and went outside and sat on the patio and cried. Nothing triggered it...I just started crying and couldn’t stop. My wife woke up a few hours later and found me...she cried, too. At that moment, we both knew I needed help.

Today, I saw a therapist for the first time in my life. She (no pics) asked me to give her a detailed schedule of my typical day. It was then that I realized that I spend way too much time on social media, including this website. I’m not saying this has caused my depression but I don’t think it helps in any way.

By the end of my first session I felt some relief. I’ll be seeing her weekly until something gives. I do have hope that things will get better, but I know it will take hard work and sacrificing some things that aren’t healthy for me at this point.

This will be my last post for a while, maybe ever. Thanks for providing me with some laughs and wtf’s. There are some really awesome people here. Also, if you’re dealing with depression, don’t be afraid to get help.

If you look outside and see a star, somewhere, somehow, I might just be looking at that very same star.

Love,

Tyga Woods, 2018 Comeback Poster of the Year

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