re: Are you happy?

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I haven’t been happy in over a decade If I didn’t believe in Jesus I’d kill myself but I don’t want

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Know the feeling and at my age, I have very little interest in what brings tomorrow.

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frick no I’m not

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God dammit nurse. Your Facebook looks so happy! What's wrong, beautiful?

I’m on a bunch of hormones that makes me hate life
Can’t get pregnant...will possibly find out next week I will never be able to and deal with knowing for sure I’ll never be a mom.
My dad’s mental illness is getting worse and making myself, mom, and siblings miserable. I’m so stressed about that I don’t sleep good. I jump every time my phone goes off cause I’m scared it’s something about my dad. I don’t want to hang out with my friends cause I don’t want to hear about their lives cause it just makes me feel even more fricking miserable.
I just don’t have anything to be happy about tbh. Seems like my life is basically gonna suck until my dad dies one day....then it will suck in another way having to figure out how my family will survive without him.

I just don’t see it getting any better.

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the struggle bus of adulthood

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Nice. Have had a ride or two myself.

I’m so sorry, nurse. That is a heavy burden to carry.

Boy am I glad you started this so I didn't have to. Mrs. Fly is finally pregnant after 8 years, many doctors and a shitload of $$$. I am ecstatic as well I should be, this is what both of us have been wanting for quite some time. We've both sacrificed quite a bit to get here but I would gladly do it all over again to be where we are now, with a hopefully healthy baby boy due late March.

After 10 years, because my wife is finally pregnant, her two sister in laws have decided to acknowledge we exist. So now my wife gets used as an excuse to have Christmas happen the way they want it to go, without even asking her fricking opinion. Most years my wife would let this go, but at 6 months she is extremely hormonal and is in tears. That's where I have the issue. What should be the happiest time of our life (we've sure as hell waited long enough and gone through enough) instead has been turned into a Christmas nightmare by petty bullshite. Finally got Mrs. Fly calmed down enough to go to bed but damn it is killing me to see her cry like this.

Anyway I'm on my 4th double in the past hour and as you can probably tell by this long arse rambling rant of a post I'm not much of a drinker, but I guess my question for y'all is does it ever get better? I'm to the point where I want to say frick em all and start our own tradition. They know where we live if it's that important to see us.

Nurse, you have so so so many people rooting for you and wishing for good things for you. I believe better days are coming.

ETA: But I’m glad you’re able to vent here!

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Happiness based on circumstances or materialism is temporary. It creates dependency.

The pursuit of happiness should be replaced with the pursuit of contentment.


Very, very true.

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Ive still got issues. Family issues, blood cancer etc but have learned to deal with these things in a positive way and not lose my peace. I was damn near neurotic at one time so it's been an entire remake of who I am. No real highs and lows anymore, just peace and contentment.

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Can’t get pregnant...will possibly find out next week I will never be able to

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Fill me in when you can. You know I will always listen.