OK this will be long and hard and no one will REALLY enjoy this

no , none of you have to have sex with Peej.

for those of you bored with, uninterested or think this stroke stuff is self-indulgent, don't read the rest of it you'll hate it

My recovery from the stroke has been a shitty experience, not that anyone has had a fun, delightful lighthearted stroke or cancer or a similarly challenging recovery experience

but Im most familiar with my story because I'm still living through it. 2.5 years with the event itself at the beginning of the pandemic panic, no insurance, family selling house over my objection, inability to access therapy, supply chain issues, finally finding a therapist after a year, then them having a heart attack closing the business, so losing mt therapy, money woes . The hair however has been on point, but on whole , the past 2+ years....

long story short, it sucked

With all that comes the inevitable depression, wanting to end it, thinking of ways to end it. Feeling so isolated then isolating even more. Depression is a fricking mother fricker, more paralyzing than the stroke itself.
The human experience can be so extreme so shocking to the human that's going through it.

Yeah you're always aware that you're not the only one in the world that has gone through this before and that people are still going through it this very moment at exactly the same you could be going through a stroke recovery just like me .

get to the fricking point oweo


this morning I jogged, almost at a run pace. Wasnt fast was not far, did not last long. But it was more than a walk, more..slightly more than a jog
my guess is I would have finished last in a special Olympics qualifier and everyone watching would have felt the need to stifle laughter and clap longer than the effort deserved and I might have gotten an extra juice pack because im so special

but frick yall I kinda ran

there is still tremendous pain as after 2 years muscles and nerve bundles are reconnecting. My arm is still lagging far behind my leg in recovery, but its keeping pace. I TURNED THE LIGHT ON THIS AM USING MY RIGHT ARM/HAND
The cold weather SUCKS and i know in the next week and in the months ahead I will have days where I cant do anything. I will curse and cry, annoy the cat and feel stupid

But the next day I will rise and try


so again I want to say thank you to all, that gave to the GFM, those that continue to pray, ask me on the OT, call me , send me nudes ( thats enough MikeLB) Keep sending pet pics I fricking love those,keep being a friend and know I notice even if I'm too wrapped up in my own shite to say something or its the end of a tough day and I cant


yall are the best assemblage of message board retards and sexual deviants a guy could ever have as friends

I know I have a LONG way to go, Ive lost so much I will never get back, there is a lot I hate about my current life a lot that can still go wrong

but Ive made it this far and much of the credit belongs to yall


love you frickers