re: For those out there contemplating suicide. It affects others, very sobering video

Guy I knew did it last week. Great guy dealing with CTE. Sad sad situation.

Many people who commit suicide do so feeling that the people who love them will be better off without them. They see themselves as a burden to those around them and actually think by ending their lives they are freeing those people of their presence.

It's a mindset that once it takes hold is extremely difficult to turn around, and is a major sign that someone is very serious and genuinely contemplating suicide IMO.

Its why when people say "talk to your friends and family when you feel depressed" it was always weird advice to me (however well meaning it was). At my worst moments I felt like my friends and family only tolerated me and would be better served with out me around. Often I even thought they secretly didn't want me around at all and were hoping I'd go through with it. Obviously not true but in genuine moments of suicidal ideation there's a level of delusion that sets in. That combined with the lack of hope and whatever else led you down that road in the first place is a bad combination.

At the risk of sounding unhinged I do think we have a society/culture that, while all of your basic needs are usually cared for, is somehow uniquely toxic and indifferent in many ways and leads a lot of people down a dark path. Whether it's a lack of God or something else I don't know but I feel like we're in a time where a lot of people are in bad places, and all of the "go to therapy" talk and anti-depressants in the world won't change it, it's something fundamental.

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I worked at an office where the previous boss before I started there came into work and shot himself in the office unisex bathroom. Again, leaving his friends and co-workers to find and clean up the mess.

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I think I would just walk out into the woods like that Into the Wild guy and let the critters have at it. Clean, natural circle of life. I honestly don’t fault people for leaving this God forsaken planet when they feel like they are tired of the ride.

Yep. Within two weeks of each other. I talked with the other every day after the first did it and he seemed fine. I told him I’d buy him a plane ticket home to stay with me if needed. Said he was ok and had to go gather all of his brothers belongings. We talked about plans of traveling around the world and spreading his brothers ashes. It was a fricked up 2020. They were supposed to be in their sisters wedding two weeks after too. They did a joint funeral and it was the saddest thing I’ve ever been to.

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My high school loser douchebag friends and I used to call random strangers and tell them we were going to kill ourselves. Most people tried to talk us out of it.

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I listened to all I could. Made me wanna cry.

That child screaming and crying heartbreak was too much for me.

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I have offended people by saying this, but suicide is the most selfish decision anyone can make in life.

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I get what you’re saying and someone always comes in these threads to make that assertion, but I don’t think you have a grasp of the mental hell that someone must be in to put a gun in their own mouth and pull the trigger.

You’re expecting a irrational and mentally ill person to make a rational, empathetic decision. No telling how many times they had been at that point and didn’t do it only to find that eventually, there was a tipping point.

Several years ago, I sat on my bed with a pistol to my head for hours. Still till this day, I have no clue why I did not pull the trigger.

Suicidal people become lost and desperate. The overwhelming intrusive thoughts block everything else out and suicide seems the most logical escape at the time.

I miss my ex girlfriend. It hurt when she married another man and moved back home to Texas. I always cared for her. We communicated often through text and I knew she was unhappy with Robert. We sexted a few times but my heart wasn’t in it.

My ex had constant health issues since she was 25. She was a great cook and I miss those Friday nights when she would invite me over. We would watch movies and make out. But four months later she accepted a proposal from Robert. I cried for two weeks but got through it.

I think she was lonely with her husband as she struggled with knee issues, spine issues, and hip problems. She was obese and couldn’t lose the weight. She and Robert divorced about six months before she committed suicide. She left a 22 year old son behind.

It bothers me still but I think often how her issues could have been my issues had she and I got married in ‘98. I just wish I could go back in time to her apartment and hold her for a while. I will always love her even though she was a bitch to me many times.

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Reminds me of that Clemson guy on here who killed himself. Kind of bothered me and I didn't know him.

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TheHiddenFlask.

He and I dated a couple girls that were best friends back when we went to LSU. Many beers were had. Was a good fella.