re: Coming to terms with your mortality

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The way I look at it, when you’re dead, you won’t know it.

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if you wake up in hell, you'll know it

I’ll welcome death whenever it comes.

I had my fun.

At this point all I am is a worker drone to make money for my employer and pay bills at home.

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The only thing that really helped me cope with it is seeing other people die on the internet

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This guy's wife told him today that she's pregnant. He's going to be responsible for raising a child in a few months.

I don't fear dying in the least bit.....just don't want to experience a long, dragged out painful ordeal like I've seen some do.

We'll see, but I'm halfway home and certainly not losing sleep thinking about it.

I was fortunate to grow up in a large, good family with lots of aunts, uncles, and cousins. When I was a kid, I thought all of my uncles, most of them tough ol’ veterans, would live forever. As a kid, I never thought about my grandparents passing away; they seemed happy and healthy and thought they would be here forever. As they’ve passed though in recent years, one by one, I’ve cone to accept my own mortality and have even prepared for it as far as having my wife (no pics) and kids taken care of.

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This guy's wife told him today that she's pregnant. He's going to be responsible for raising a child in a few months.

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Life is not fair my friend. I like to face things head on. I dont shy away from reality.

TLDR: I have a disease could kill me at any time, I don’t care, I get drunk, I eat like a slob, I don’t care about dying, I only care about the affect of my death on my family.

I have lived my adolescent and adult life with the knowledge of a life-threatening heart disease. I was born with it, there is no cure, and I found out that I had it when I was in my early teens. I did not give a damn about it when I was in my teens, 20’s, 30’s, or 40’s, then I had a friend from high school drop dead from a heart attack a few days after he turned 50. This made me think a little more critically about my mortality. It has not made me change my lifestyle (I drink and eat more than most of my friends but I don’t smoke. I also have a fricked up thyroid so I’m naturally thin) but I’ve begun to think about things like outliving my parents who just made 75 or what my wife will do with all of my stuff when I go. I live my life the way I want to and I feel like I am good to all people I meet, I go out of my way to help others, I haven’t kicked any kittens. So when the time comes, I think I will be ready and I don’t fear it.