re: Chapters of Life

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Life’s a picture that you paint. Blues and grays, cans and can’ts. Heaven knows I’m not a saint, but I know... that Jesus and mama always loved me.

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Don't forget to feed Jake; He's been a good dog.

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It's almost cruel that most of us finally start to figure out who we are when we get older.

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I wish I could have been me now when I was in HS and through my 20s.

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What did you replace your alcohol addiction with?

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Nothing. I sought to heal myself rather than depending on things.

I moved back to my happy place, stopped worrying, and learned answers to the material superficial world are solved from the inside. Appeasing doesn't solve anything.

Involving yourself in things you cannot change leads to frustration, attachment leads to suffering, and possessions lead to slavery.

I lived in Boulder for a decade. You may have been too busy spouting Marxist Narratives and projecting characteristics upon me to pay attention to what I was actually saying . Both off the grid types you are addressing here in this thread are both live and let live small government types. You know, you do you and I’ll do me and just keep the government out of my shite. But I digress...

Glad you are back. I promise to be nicer. I was kind of a dick to you. Sorry about that.

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Funny that both of us kind of dropped out of the rat race early and sought refuge in the mountains. The natural world and music have always been The Truth that brings life back in to focus

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Absolutely. Nature and music are where I find the inner quietness to stop talking and to start listening. Detach from the hive.

Rejecting the primal and natural, feeling guilty for denying the individual has led to confusion in men.

I really like Boulder. I was there for a wedding a few years and could see myself living there





.... until I saw the prices of real estate.


I used to be way more annoying than I am now.

We are all annoying in youth. Except for G Vice. At 18, he arrived at LSU from the Vermillion swamps , clad in his black tennis shoes, ready to be a CEO. The rest of us did and said a lot of stupid shite before we figured life out a bit more.

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When the addiction is resolved or stopped, the void remains, ya know?

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Addictions don't fill voids, they trick the mind into avoiding them. They don't go away. It all comes back to healing.

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I used to be way more annoying than I am now

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Hey! Long time no talk. I actually asked about you the other name but I couldn’t remember you’re name. I remember we bought you a bike. You and I talked plants because I had something g weird growing in my flower garden.

Yeah, on this topic, I have the clouds of change on the horizon too. Quickly. It’s good because I’m not happy with the present, but it’s gonna be a lot of change at once. Location, job, distance from aging parents, etc.

I’m most worried about the distance from aging parents. I don’t want to feel like m leaving them when they need me most. I don’t want to feel that resentment towards myself whether even if I have no real choice in the matter.

Tha would be something I could sell if I actually had a method. But I slowed down, learned acceptance and adaptation, appreciated nature a little more, embraced minimalism, did the things that felt right to me instead of living someone elses life.

We are all spiritual individuals trapped in a materialistic (superficial) collective world. Finding who we are, and finding meaning in our lives leads to contentment.
Approval, attachment, rigidity are all poison to the human spirit.

Forgiveness and shedding anger have to happen. You can't be at peace with yourself if you're at war with others.