re: Have you ever had suicidal thoughts? Or ever came close to ending it?

e you ever had suicidal thoughts? Or ever came close to ending it?Posted on 2/13/21 at 11:22 am to CatsGoneWild
Lost a young son many years ago. I put a gun in my mouth on more than one occasion. If it wasn't for my wife and my father I wouldn't be here today.

Wives can tick you off from time to time and I have been married for 34 years. I am so happy your wife helped you though this. Mine would do the same.
Sorry about your son. He would be proud of his father.

if any of you ever feel this way call someone, call me. Get on this board and find me,,no one is alone.

This past year hs been unprecedented in our lifetime.It's normal to feel the stress

you're not crazy or weak, seriously reach out

I must say the deer sausage turned out awesome. That’s another win boys.

I didn't read every post, but why not move away. Somewhere far, another country, an island, just somewhere to get away from everything. I don't know what you are going through, but a clean slate (if possible) may help. God bless

Never even close but completely understand how life and hormones can change that in a hurry. Also feeling like those Reincarnation and Near Death documentaries have a lot of evidence to show death shouldn’t be feared.

The thought has crossed my mind, but I don’t think I could go through with it.

I’ve been open about my depression on here. I’m on anti anxiety/anti depressants. They’ve helped plenty. I’ve started to think the generic responses (seek religion and exercise) are from people who don’t understand depression. When you’re depressed, you often don’t want to do anything. Going to the grocery store can be a chore. You feel drained. Going for a jog isn’t something a truly depressed person can easily do. My meds are downers anyway, and a side effect is weight gain. Exercising with the intent to lose weight is more of an uphill battle than ever. I’ve managed to keep that in check for the most part, but that’s not the point of this thread.

You need to talk to people. Be open with your issues. Now, more than ever, people accept others’ personal battles and want to help. There’s no stigmas these days.

The pandemic has been tough on me. I get cabin fever easily, and my life with my wife seems to revolve around traveling, going to sporting events, being out and about in public places, etc. The government has decided those things aren’t important, and I’m convinced they don’t care much about mental health. I’m honestly surprised we haven’t seen higher level politicians commit suicide yet.

I’m glad I can complain about such petty things as tailgating at an LSU football game, but for me...that was necessary therapy. Those little things are what makes life worth living for most. My wife has been a rock through this. We are celebrating 9 months of marriage next month with a vow renewal/wedding celebration that has had to be rescheduled several times.

The decision makers during the pandemic haven’t been considerate to the needs of people with mental health issues. Talk to someone, anyone. Seek out a professional. Meds worked for me, but I know they aren’t for everybody.

There are several posters on here who have experience with this and are great listeners. Beware of those who are clueless and lack sensitivity. There are a couple of posters I won’t name that have made fun of my depression (which pales in comparison to the struggles many on here deal with) that I wish ill upon, despite praying that I can rid myself of those feelings.

Thankfully, this thread seems to be full of the former, but the latter.

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used to think people were cowards that took the easy way out, and never understood how someone could get to that point.
After the past month, I understand how people get those thoughts. I have had a rough six months, but the past month has absolutely destroyed me. I've had alot of bad thoughts, suicidal thoughts, praying to die, and not wanting anything to do with life anymore. It has opened my eyes. I could never go through with it because of my faith, but at least I know I won't criticize anyone anymore. Thank God for friends when I've needed them

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Know for sure that you will burn in hell for eternity.

All the people who say “faith” has saved them makes me feel worse. I have no faith. I fully believe religion is bullshite and this is all meaningless. I really wish I did believe. I don’t.

I’m in my early 30s, have a good job, own my home, am completely financially stable, and at the very least average looking, probably more 7 out of 10. And yet my dating life has been an absolute disaster. I don’t connect with people. I’m too self conscious and constantly doubt myself.

Waking up is the hardest part of the day. I obsess over everything, every wrong thing I’ve ever done. Regret eats me alive and I probably have less to regret than just about anyone on this planet, I truly haven’t made any consequential mistakes.

I was hospitalized for the third time in my life right before covid. It was a waste of time. I’ve had every possible mental health treatment and know exactly what I’m “supposed” to do but just can’t do it. I’ve talked everything that bothers me out to therapists and there just isn’t anything anyone can say anymore to help me. They’ve tinkered with medication a lot and the 5 medicine cocktail I’m on now seems to work the best but medication can only do so much.

My parents are my biggest support, particularly my mom, but they are in poor health and won’t be around forever or will be at diminished ability to support me. It scares me.

Just rambling in basically a diary entry, doubt anyone reads this.

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doubt anyone reads this

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I read your post, if that makes you feel any better.