5 months ago today I suffered a stroke that disabled half my body

This isn't about me with a subtle way of including mention of my "friends",

this is about my friends.

5 months ago today I suffered a stroke that disabled half my body. Lying there in that hospital room and then the rehab I really could not find a reason to want to live. I don't say this for sympathy I say this out of honesty I felt scared, defeated. I felt as life had finally beaten me now I just waited to die I had no idea if I could ever get back to the healthy body I had before and I had no idea that even if I improve at some point that progress would stop in where would I be how independent healthy how free.

And then Rummy started a GoFundMe and friends strangers even people who had been board rivals stepped up made contributions. More than any amount of money it was the encouragement and support. And that changed my way of thinking made me believe at that moment I felt I owed to all of you to get better, I still felt sorry for myself still felt like it was very unfair or maybe it was a punishment from God that didn't understand. But I had something else to think about I wanted to live up to deserve the love you guys show me,

So here I stand 5 months later not anywhere close to where I want to be but so far removed from where I was. People like Rough and Redstick who have served as chauffeur, handyman,cook, DoorDash, doing things for me that I could not do for myself right now. And then the dozens of people who had sent emails text messages talk to me on Facebook checked on me, encouraged me, sent nudes to inspire me, thank you for thinking of me MikelBR people like Paige, LucasP, Blondie and that black guy, who may not be active players on the board but have been active encouragers in my recovery, Ryno, GRT, the original_______. So many others who if I don't mention it's not that I forgot it's that I don't want people to know I know you. I have a rep to uphold.

I owe each one of you is a huge debt of gratitude and thanks that I can never repay, but in some small way, I hope that you will know how much you mean to me.
So that means if we ever meet each one of you is getting a hug. So don't fight it just go with it. for some of you that hug will involve some groping so BB, slag, Dorothy, Mikel consider the debt paid in full.

And for all of you please know that despite all the jokes and dumbassery, switcharoos, teasing I think of myself as one of you.
Just smarter and better looking with great hair,

Thanks and much love, more than I can properly express.