I know I have caused Controversy here ... (Very Long)

I know I have caused some controversy here lately. I want it to be clear that I do not actually believe any human being is better than any another human being solely because of their skin color. I’m mostly just shitposting out of anger, frustration, and desperation because of what is happening in this country. I do not want violence, I do not want conflict, I want everyone to live in harmony.

I have admittedly been pretty inflammatory. To the point where someone in another thread asked if I was doing okay. I thought it made sense to give it more visibility by making this thread. Here is what I said back -

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“Thanks. I appreciate that. I understand why you’d ask.

I’m not okay. I’m so deeply heartbroken by what is happening in this country, and so constrained by the mainstream thought police, that the only way I can express myself and communicate with people is through subliminal memes on the internet.

I bought into the supposed American ideals, values, beliefs, traditions, my whole entire life. Based my entire identity on being American.

Believed in equality, meritocracy, liberty. Believed that my hard work would pay off and I’d be able to provide a loving, nurturing, disciplined environment for my family. See my children grow up and succeed in ways I could never imagine. See them be happy.

But these people don’t want equality, they don’t want meritocracy, they don’t want liberty. They want revenge on me for things I didn’t even do. For things I don’t even agree with and find reprehensible. But that doesn’t matter to them. It doesn’t matter to anyone.

Corporate America, Academia, Mainstream Media, the entire fricking Government from top to bottom is letting these people do whatever they want. They’re fricking encouraging it.

It fricking sucks. It doesn’t have to be like this. It shouldn’t be like this. Everything I’ve been told is a lie. Everyone has sold us out. And no ones doing a single fricking thing about it.

I just want my fricking country back. I just want my family to be safe. I just want to preserve the history, the ideals, and the traditions that are the building blocks of who I am as a person.

But they won’t let me. This will never stop.

At a certain point, you might as well just become what the Left chooses to label you as. They will never see you differently anyway.

It truly is a clown world.”
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I don’t want a war - an ideological one or a racial one ... but with the way things have been trending in this country ... it feels inevitable.

It feels like I don’t have a choice. It feels like I am being attacked for being who I am. Like I am being erased.

I haven’t hurt anyone. I haven’t violated anyone’s rights. I haven’t oppressed anyone. I’ve done nothing but intensely believed in American values my whole life ... and where has that gotten me? Thrown under the bus.

I don’t believe any race is superior. That’s fricking dumb. Everyone on this planet is capable of success, greatness, kindness, love, friendship, being a good family member, friend, citizen in society, etc. I know that to be true.

That’s why I hold my fellow Americans to the same standard I hold myself, regardless of their race. And yet - look at the outcome when I expect that ... looting, rioting, chaos. Assault, rape, murder. Blatant lies and propaganda and people selling themselves and their communities to the highest bidder.

Leftists love to talk about “intersectionality”, but never about the intersection between race and culture. At what point am I justified in feeling this way? At what point do we say our system doesn’t work? That our differences and perspectives are just too great to overcome? Why do we act like humans have advanced past tribalism and that everything is fine?

We can’t even have legitimate discussions about race anymore in this country. People don’t want to have hard conversations.Truth doesn’t matter anymore. All that matters now are feelings.

What about my feelings? They don’t matter? Because of the color of my skin? Doesn’t that put us right back where we started?

I hope I’m wrong but I feel we’re already past the tipping point. It feels like there’s no going back. It feels like I’m on a run away train with no brakes.

I didn’t fricking sign up for this. I don’t fricking want this. They require absolute submission to their insane demands. They expect me to keep my mouth shut and kneel while simultaneously telling me I need to speak up more and do more and that everything’s my fault anyway.

It doesn’t make sense. None of this makes sense.

Maybe everything I’ve been made to believe about America is a lie in the first place. Maybe Liberty is impossible to maintain. Maybe I’m a fricking moron for ever believing in the power of the individual.

We are literally diving head first into either a dystopia or a civil war. I don’t want either, but I will never kneel, I will never submit, and I will never relinquish my country to terrorists.

If it has to be us or them. So be it. My answer will always be US.

I won’t throw the first blow, or fire the first shot.

But when the time comes, I will defend myself and others like me. Violently if I have to.

I don’t have a choice. They never gave me one.