re: What was the lowest/darkest/toughest time in ur life & how did u pull yourself out of it?

Has cocaine and strippers been mentioned?

When I was 16 my grandmother on my Mom's side died. Three months later my father died after a short, brutal fight with Non-Hodgkin's lymphoma. Two weeks after my father died, my grandfather (my father's stepdad) died from a massive heart attack. I probably drank more than I should have for about the next five or ten years. I'm sure it was harder on my grandmother who buried her youngest child and her husband in less than a month. And my Mom who lost her mother and was now a widow with four children under the age of 18.

Wife died at age 51. God.

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but man there were some crazy things about that area.

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It also used to be a huge biker area. 1%ers

I was banned for 10 years.

Then Supa reinstated me

my ex lost a baby just shy of5 months plus, it was a very messy miscarriage physically and emotionally it really took a toll on her ,DR's almost brought her in for surgery as not everything expelled quickly , which technically is a stillbirth ( and I wouldnt wish that on my worst enemy) this is really tough to even type

the loss resulted in a divorce about 6 month later, and I was still very much in love,, due to the divorce I also lost a stepdaughter whom I loved as much as any man can love a child

3 heavy losses in 6 months,, 10 to the final divorce decree

I still miss my stepdaughter, still imagine who my unborn child would be at every step along the way
every baby I see, I imagine what it would be like to hold my own

every toddler I see I imagine what it would be like to be greated at the door and play with them

every young kid I imagine the stupid funny things I would have taught my own and laugh at their behavior that I taught and encouraged

every first day of school, every Christmas, every Little league game, Disney movie opening.. ever day I miss what I never had and the step daughter I did have.

Im not over it, never will be I just try to not dwell on it, hope to meet my child in heaven and maybe one day get the chance to be a Papa or great Uncle and gain from that what I'll never have

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Owl you’ve mentioned this before and don’t think I don’t remember. I’m very sorry for your loss and I hope you know when I fck around with you that I haven’t forgotten what you’ve been through. Good vibes bro

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Thank you 08
Owlvis is a bit of a moron and deserves every bit of grief he gets

off-board we have all experienced loss and pain , thats why I dont bring family into this place

well other than the moms and wives I've banged,,but its not my fault theyre whores


and Im not talking about real moms or wives if thats not obvious

You’re a good dude and I can’t imagine the pain that you Redstick and others are feeling on a daily basis.


But your right, Owlvis, the online persona, username deserves everything he gets


Off board you’re aight

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You’re a good dude and I can’t imagine the pain that you Redstick and others are feeling on a daily basis.

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It's still fresh for me but I understand how Owlie must feel. I don't think that sadness will ever fully go away. I had to request a copy of our son's autopsy report which arrived in the mail today. Reading through it brought the emotions back all over again plus some new ones. It's infuriating to read through these reports and see that there was NOTHING at all wrong with our son and knowing that he should still be here with us today.

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