I only took a small amount but it was an overwhelmingly positive experience. I did not have visual hallucinations, but a great joyous change in my mental state. I was really nervous and afraid of losing control of myself, but during the session I realized that it's not about control and I really need to learn to let go. This led to feelings of selflessness. I regretted that as much as I have the ability to help others, I haven't done enough of it. But this regret was not a guilty type of regret, but more forward-looking, as in "I have an opportunity going forward to make an impact on others." Overall, it was one of the most spiritual experiences in my life.

Those are the feelings I felt during the session. Once the session was over and my normal mental state resumed, I still remembered everything from the session and I reflect back on it all the time. But I have to make a conscious effort to reflect back on it and calm myself down in times of anxiety. It helps, but I'm still anxious.

I have little doubt that psychedelics, when properly administered by a psychiatrist, would lead to breakthroughs in therapy. These substances open your mind so that you can remember things that you didn't before, you understand parts of yourself that you didn't before, you have realizations that you didn't before. For example, maybe there is something causing you great pain that you are keeping locked away, and what you really need is to think of it from a different perspective. Maybe you'll finally forgive someone who has caused you pain. Maybe you'll understand how to move past your own regrets in life.

But the industry is not interested in therapy, the industry is interested in making pills that simply make your anxiety go away for a temporary time until you are ready to pay for your next refill. These psychedelics require political risks to be taken to change the law to allow for more trials to go through for approval. The patents have run out and that makes them much less profitable. No one with power wants to take these risks for such little profitable gain. Such is the world we live in, unfortunately.