Eyesinweasel

I feel your pain, as I battle this almost daily. I get suicidal easily.

First look into therapy. Treat that shite like a lawyer after you just committed murder-be as open and honest as possible. Second, talk to a psychiatrist. They can administer a series of tests to try and pin down a specific diagnosis, then treat with meds if necessary. It’s helpful if you can do both in one clinic.

Finally, look to see if tms if available in your area. That and meditation have helped me more than medication. It’s expensive though. In MS insurance only covers it for “severe depression “.

In my apartment at ole miss my junior year. I was nursing a hangover and my then girlfriend (now wife) called me in a tizzy. I turned on the tv just in time to see the 2nd impact. I’ll forever remember that awful day.

Silver lining-politics took a back seat for an extended time, and the news/media was very watchable.

Carrot.

You can configure it to be almost identical to dark sky (that was my favorite too).

I’m an olemiss hombre true and through,

But damn theses cookies taste good.

I very much appreciate y’all’s input, I don’t post much but read frequently, y’all’s input helped me change my life.

Sorry, I was trying to not put up a wall of text in op, I’ll clear up some things:
Yes, I am getting stronger.
Yes, when I do inbody tests, everything is as duplicated as possible re workout timing, eating, time of day, urination etc before tests.
I’ll generalize daily work out-both types, 5 days a week, alternate the type of workout,cycle with above average intensity for 30 mins.

Weights, full body, only lift “heavy” once a month, I’m getting older. Usually work about 60% of max, 3 sets of 8-15 reps. Generally exercises are bench, tow, shrugs, curls, tri extensions, reverse lunges, Romanian one leg split squat, calf raises. Usually mix in some alternate, but that’s the basics. Worth noting, I have back problems so I avoid dead lifts and traditional squats.

Body weight day-these numbers are averages-300 push-ups, 120 pull ups, 300 air squats, calf raises, box jumps. Usually incorporate rings, bands and the like. This workout varies a bit, but the above is typical.

My goal was to lose weight and look/feel better, I’m there. Now I want to be lean fit and strong. I’m talk and skinny, like a WR build,not a DE build. I’ll never be super strong links benching 450 pounds. I want to stay below 10% BF.

Bottom line, I guess it freaked me out to see a loss of 5 muscle pounds. While I am getting stronger, and I gave good definition, I don’t want to lose hard earned muscle for stupid reasons. Again THANK YALL, I very much listen to what I read here.

Don’t wait, go to the doctor and get some suppositories, if you’re chummy with him he’ll probably call it in without a visit. Make sure you get refills so you’re covered for the future. It’s not worth putting yourself through five days of hell while hoping it clears up.

Forloh-100% American. It’s as pricey as kuiu, but American. I love my pieces I have.

First outdoor board post, thank y’all in advance for your input.
I haven’t bought a new bow since 2009, and I’m way behind on the new technology and brand innovations. I’m of moderate/average skill, I usually don’t hunt further than 45 yards or so. I’m a bigger guy, so I have a longer lop and draw weight, if that factors in. All hunting is stands or blinds. I’m not married to any brand (currently shooting a Hoyt carbon matrix). Would like to be around $1500 all in (sights rest and everything).

Wellbutrin 300 and 1200 Lithium daily. I too am 40. I’m bipolar 2 so it’s more stabilizing than perking up. It took me several years to get my mixture right, so I’ve tried a lot of antidepressants. My most common side effect was lack of sex drive/performance issues. I never had any serious side effects. Most of those horror stories you read are people that don’t need to be on antidepressants in the first place. Hope you are able to figure out all of your angles.

That’s hard to even read. I’m so sorry for you. I will indeed pray for y’all, and may you and your family find some peace in all of this.
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