re: Mental Health Talk

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Just curious as to why? Were you competing or something?

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I competed as a teenager. My best friend from childhood was one of the biggest steroid dealers in the Southeast (he is now dead - died from massive heart attack at 38) so he gave me all the steroids and hGH I wanted for free. First thing I ever took was Metanabol dbol from Poland I took two 5mg pills a day for 50 days and blew up. This was at 17. Then he said here try these it was a suitcase full off Sustenon pre loads from Mexico there must have been 1,000 of them in that suitcase I took 10 of them and took 1 a week for 10 weeks. I had no clue what I was doing. Then, I started reading bodybuilding magazines etc and learned about proper diet and training etc (this was in the mid to late 1990’s) eventually the internet came along and I learned even more. So from 17 to 35 I was on steroids pretty much non stop then hGh became obtainable in the early 2000’s and I threw that in as well. I did take some brief breaks in between. I stopped at 35 when my friend died it was the wake-up call that this isn’t worth it and I had been lying to myself all these years while I looked extremely ‘healthy’ I was anything but. My health was a mess. All my numbers were way out of whack I was basically a ticking time bomb and a heart attack waiting to happen. I am extremely lucky to be alive today. I could have easily went to sleep one night and never woke up like a lot of guys do. Took 5 years off from gym and have been back for about 15 months now and am having an absolute blast training naturally. I also need to thank this board as I have learned a lot from reading here especially about training naturally and supplementation and proper diet etc. When I was training with the anabolics and growth it didn’t matter what I ate or how little sleep I got I because I was on so much stuff my body was repairing fast. Now, all I am concerned about is my cardiovascular health and how big my waist is and I try to avoid all seed oils, artificial sweeteners, flavors etc so my goals are a bit different than a lot of folks here. I use free weights and still train like a ‘bodybuilder’ but just want to be in the best cardiovascular shape I can be in as ultimate goal.

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That sounds awesome I wish I had a friend like that

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He had a whole room in his house with nothing but suitcases and boxes full of steroids and a whole refrigerator full of hGH the good stuff not the knockoff black top, yellow top or green top stuff from China or Mexico. He wasn’t into working out at first so he knew nothing about all the steroids so would give them to me to try before he sold them he was selling sheets of acid and marijuana his ‘source’ for those suddenly had access to a bunch of steroids (this guy knew nothing about them either he just knew he could make lots of $$$$ from them as there was a huge market out there for this stuff) then soon after that I introduced him to a few older ‘big guys’ at the gym (we were just 17 and 18 years old) and he was able to move tons of this stuff a month now and because I introduced him to these guys that were spending a fortune on stuff he was marking up 500% from his costs he told me I could have whatever I wanted for free whenever I wanted it. So, obviously I took advantage of that. I would grab 5 or 6 kits of Serostim growth at a time along with 100 amps of testoviron depot, 500 dbol, 200 anadrol, 5 or 6 bottles of equipoise, 5 or 6 bottles of Tren, 5 or 6 bottles of winstrol, and if he had it I would grab about 500 tabs of Proviron. That would keep me set for a while. When it ran out I would just go and get more. This went on for like 15 years. No telling how much $$$ worth of stuff I got for free. Easily over $250,000 I bet. Maybe more. The growth back then was an absolute fortune alone.

Damn, it’s a wonder you didn’t have any long term health issues. Also can’t believe your buddy never got popped for all that.

We should get back on the tren baw