re: Depression is kicking my arse

Get off the dating apps. My mood was considerably worse using them.

You do need to probably spend more time outside, even if it's just reading. Knowing I had to prevent myself from becoming a shut it, I specifically moved next to an outdoor shopping mall, with parks I could walk to. The amount of time I spend on this board is directly proportional to if it's too hot to sit outside and read a book.

You think you're depressed, I had to go to the park to watch other people's kids having fun, as I unexpectedly was, since I only got to see my kids about every six weeks (they live five miles away.) That was a complete kick in the nuts that I endured for almost six months.

Something else that may help is using a counseling app like Talkspace to get more frequent and convenient appointments. It's also easier to dump a therapist that isn't working.