re: Watching SO watching a parent die of cancer

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I was able to say goodbye to Dad, over five weeks. It was impossibly hard, but I have moments from then that I cherish,

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This is the only "silver lining" of this whole situation, if there is such a thing.

I lost my dad to cancer 6-7 years ago. In the back of our minds, we knew the end was near, but it became a reality one morning when the doctor who was making the rounds checked his vitals and just shook her head and told us his time was near.

The family then got to spend the rest of that day, about 12 hours total, at his bedside. He wasn't awake, but the doctor assured us that he could probably hear and comprehend what we were saying. Everyone said what they wanted to say. We assured him that it was "ok" to let go so he wouldn't suffer any more. We were all there as he took his last breath, then there was a calm, peaceful feeling for us all.

Point being, the fact that there was "closure" made the ordeal a lot easier than it could have been otherwise.

To give another perspective I will tell some of my story. At 50 years old, I am 2 years and 3 months into my battle with Stage IV rectal cancer. I was initially told I was inoperable and that with treatment I could expect about 2 years to live. I have since had surgery where the docs at MD Anderson removed 70% of my liver in two resections 6 weeks apart.

I have been on chemo for about 2 years and one month and it is getting tougher to deal with the chemo side effects.

I said all of this to say that my biggest worry is not dying, actually that seems to be the easy part,I worry about my wife and kids after this beast finally gets me. I want them to be able to carry on after I am gone. I worry a lot about how my wife will continue to live the lifestyle we are used to. I worry about the emotional pain and suffering my family will go through once I get to the end.

It is hard to talk about, but my worries consume me at times and I sometimes wish that I could spare them. Cancer affects all people involved and it is as much emotional as physical.
I will quit now, but please know that cancer patients worry about the mess that is left behind after the battle is lost.

Edit to say frick Cancer no matter the type or stage

Right there with you man. I’ve spent the last year as the primary caretaker for my dad, who was diagnosed with glioblastoma last summer. He just passed 7/7/18...fricking brutal to go through that with my family. Watch him slowly slip a little further and further away from the dad I used to know.

Hope you and yours are able to find some peace, for me personally, after watching him suffer for so long it was merciful to finally see him go.

frick cancer indeed

LSU2001.. thanks for sharing that in this thread, man. Just know there's people out there praying for you.

One question do you use any cbd products?

Hang in there cool. God speed and prays. You can beat this.