As 6pm approached today

I kept getting that anxious reminder to get my bets in for the early nba/ncaa games for the night. Every time the thought popped in my head the subsequent realization that there were none just felt like a kick to the nuts

I keep joking about no sports but I think this is gonna hit me wayy harder than I realized. Not only is it really gonna expose my gambling addiction but also how much I depend on sports on a daily basis for my happiness. Its already pretty eye-opening unto the need for a little more balance in my life haha

This truly is the weirdest shite ive ever experienced in my 27 yrs...lets hope it will just end up being a unique experience in the long run and nothing worse