re: How old were your kids when you stopped letting them bathe with you?

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Damn man, I can only imagine how rough that would be.
I remember starting a thread on here with the question of how would people here handle it and I was pretty shocked to see how many said they'd just move on.

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You go through the motions of moving on but inside you never do. I’d kill to still have her by my side. Those naps with her head on my chest made me feel more whole than I’ve ever felt in my life. She was my purpose for living. Seeing any Frozen or Minnie Mouse stuff immediately brings me right back and I just pause. You can’t just turn off your paternal instinct once it’s been switched on. It’s a different type of pain. They diagnosed me with PTSD and acute anxiety after it happened. I’ve lived through my uncle being murdered, losing all of my moms side of the family within a 10 year period, lot of shite. That was the worst of them all. That changed me as a man. Best way I can describe it is it feels like your child’s been kidnapped, you know right where they are and can do nothing about it.