re: I don't know what to do. I just want to end it

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I've seen even the biggest, most self-assured men get knocked off their high horses all the way down to the bottom over the years.

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Sitting here thinking, I think I know why some of my friends have been distant recently. And not all of them are married some are still single and enjoy doing things like going out drinking. I came from a middle class family and all of my close friends did as well. All of them are working paycheck to paycheck to make ends meet, like most people my age. Good down to earth people. I think I let my successes go to my head too much, became too arrogant and a show off. Letting it change who I am.

I've been down lately but honestly I'm thinking I needed this to bring me back down to earth.

This is where I've been struggling..trying to figure out what I did wrong. I feel a little better now because I think I can actually fix it, I just didn't know what needed fixing. I might can get my girl back. I just have to go back to being the true me.

I appreciate the responses in this thread. You all have helped a ton, this actually has made me feel better and helped do some self reflection.