re: I don't know what to do. I just want to end it

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Stop doing drugs, figure out your financial situation, and move on.

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To clarify I don't drink or do drugs on a daily basis. Like I don't have a problem. I work my arse off during the week and don't touch anything and like to let loose on the weekend.

What's bothering me is the unreal stress I have to due to my daily job and the issues with the company I'm partners in. Along with the afore mentioned personal things I've done in the past.

I'm not a suicidal person. But lately there is the thought creeping into my head I can't get rid of. It just pops in there like an evil voice telling me "just end it, and your problems will go away" and with the unusual high levels of stress I'm experiencing it almost sounds inviting. And that honestly scares the shite out of me because I've always been a person in control of my emotions and could find a way to fix things and get on top. Im not the type to give up and I don't know why all of the sudden giving up sounds so good. Im ashamed of myself for that