re: Do you have a life event or regret you just can't get over? (long)

First of all, I am sorry you are dealing with this. I can't imagine what you are feeling. Second of all, it was an accident. You weren't drunk. You were trying to do the right thing. Go to therapy. Get help. If you don't, your thoughts will consume you and might lead you down a dark(er) path. You aren't alone. Come back here if you need to vent.