re: Kurt Cobain - Montage of Heck

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This didn't bother me. I think it painted a proper picture of the background that Cobain grew up in. I'm sure a number of people can connect with the "Grew up in the burbs. Where mom and dad were together. But didn't really like one another anymore".

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actually, the cliched visuals were reflecting his mother and father's childhood, not Kurt Cobain's

Apparently being attracted to manipulative and dominating women runs in the Cobain genes looking at the spousal choices Kurt and his father made in their lives

Cobain's mother talked about how much her kids loved Aberdeen WA but Krist and Kurt both talked about how much they hated it.

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Completely agree with this. She knew what buttons to push with him. She just doesn't strike me as the kind of person who feels sad about the downward spiral that Cobain went down. Maybe over time she's found a way to close the door on her relationship with him. But I do find it telling that Courtney had very little to do with this documentary. Frances is the one who was orchestrating this piece.

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forgot to mention there was some revisionist history going on there with Love. She mentioned that she never cheated on him, that she "could have in London" but she also said that he OD'ed in Rome "the next day' when he thought she had cheated. As she was relaying this she was doing the look at the camera, look off to the right routine that body language experts often say could indicate lying. I dont think it was a coincidence that she "could have cheated but didnt" then he took 50 Roofies, he OD's, goes into a coma, gets out of it and kills himself a month later.

seeing the doc, some of the suicide note makes more sense:

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To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.

For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fricking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
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I always thought that he killed himself but I never thought that was his real suicide note. I suspect, like a lot of others, that this was a draft of a letter to the fans that he he wrote saying he was leaving the band. I believe the "real suicide note" was only seen by Courtney Love and she destroyed it because he blamed her cheating on him as the reason for his suicide. She even says, he would have viewed her cheating on him as the "ultimate betrayal" which sounds like something from an actual suicide note. She has never allowed anyone to handle the original suicide note, the only copy was sent via a fax machine. I cant imagine the last words of such a sensitive and prolific writer were whining about losing his love for music and then some thrown in lines about being there for his wife and daughter in spirit or some shite.