re: If you didn't have your wife (or don't have one) would you be happy being a loner?

I made a HUGE mistake when I become over-dependent on my independence (safe selfishness) post-divorce

My refusal or inability to deal with the loss of a child then 9 months later in divorce losing my wife and stepdaughter, who I will have more than thrilled with as my only kid, loved her with all my being.

instead, I gave into an addictive-like behavior of shallow sexual relationships,It was the dawn of internet dating and yall have seen my pics,

There were thousands of divorced women in their early 30s and as I aged so did 40'S 50's they and the loneliness become more or more typical and I was right there with them

date a few weeks, months even years the pseudo-relationship fooled us esp me

Then the stroke ended my ability to live so alone just wasn't possible. What I thought I was, my relationships with my environment/work/colleagues.
I proved to be worthless to others when I could no longer play my part in their lives


I'LL DIE ALONE but as my truer self,, I'll live as long as it takes me to figure that out
we all have a purpose