re: Today is the 45th anniversary of the worst day of my life

I lost mine earlier this year. Didn't really hit me until we started with "the firsts," e.g., "first Thanksgiving" a couple of weeks ago. A few well minded friends with experience seemed to expect it was going to hit like that, and contrary to the "time heals all wounds" advice, they had some more constructive and optimistic ways of looking at it.
To your nice comment, that's kind of the idea. Whatever tiny good thing I do, or pass on to my kinds, I credit him.