re: Dear diary, tired of living (update pg 15)

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I’ve contemplated God’s existence. I feel abandoned by Him. My family keeps pushing Him upon me by sending me short prayers and even a devotional for daily reading.

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You don't need platitudes and pick-me-ups.

You need real grief.

Pain and suffering are real things that need to be experienced correctly. You might never be this "human" again, and if you grieve well you might never be better than when you come out of it.

This is not something I can express well on Tigerdroppings.
Please look into the life of Frederick Buechner.

Here he is speaking of pain in an 11 minute video.

For context, his dad committed suicide when he was 10 shortly after Frederick gave him the keys.