re: Pondering Life With My Situation

I want you to know you’re not alone in your struggles. I’m not dealing with the same situation you are, but I do deal with some of the same feelings that you feel. I have severe anxiety. I mean, crippling anxiety at times. The kind that can cause me to have an absolute meltdown if something gets me anxious enough. My anxiety has controlled my life since I was a kid. It made me introverted because I wanted to avoid things that would make me anxious and wanted to hide my anxiety from others.

Now, I look at my life many days with contempt for myself. I have no close friends. I can’t tell you the last time someone who isn’t a family member asked me to hang out with them. I hate myself some days for allowing my life to be this way.

That said, I try to remain thankful for the things that I do have. Life can be worse. It’s a struggle some days to just get out of bed, but I try to just put one foot in front of the other and get through it. I guess this isn’t really advice, more of just me telling you that you’re not alone in how you feel. Many of us are struggling, even many of those who outwardly look to have everything going their way.

I’m saying a prayer for you and I hope you find brighter days ahead.