re: LivePD 7/29/17 Thread

i cling to this memory of something it used to be. he just keeps me at arms length.. stringing me along. while he just does whomever whenever (probably) .... filling my head with wasted sweet promises that are empty and only used to manipulate me.
what's fricked up.. is i'm completely aware of this and allow it to continue.

i wish i was someone who had the fricking balls to confront the a-hole.

Only if the human will help finance the ponies.


Otherwise... Ponies

Seriously, I get home at almost 10 every night from the barn. I have no time for anything but ponies.

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i cling to this memory of something it used to be. he just keeps me at arms length.. stringing me along. while he just does whomever whenever (probably) .... filling my head with wasted sweet promises that are empty and only used to manipulate me.
what's fricked up.. is i'm completely aware of this and allow it to continue.

i wish i was someone who had the fricking balls to confront the a-hole

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Sounds like a psychological prison... sounds soul crushing.

No Aspy.

Idgaf if you call me weak or a cuck because that relationship was the single best learning experience in my life.

So my ex didn't pay for anything. I bought her a car, paid for her school, she had access to my account, her job was to graduate college and make our household income high enough to support everything we wanted to do in life. Anything she wanted to try, I tried it. She never went without, she got the D whenever she wanted. This chick had it made.

I rolled over like a little bitch. Got burned hardcore. And through that catastrophic bullshite I rose like a fricking Phoenix into the man I am today. I gained a whole new perspective about life from that.

It will take an extraordinary woman to tame me now.

that's a bit dramatic...
it's just a really shitty way to feel.

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Instead of confront you should just completely drop him.

He's a jerk

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+1

Aspy, THIS is where I was looking for Peej...not the other trailer park...

I am nice to you, what am I after?

Not at all what I mean and you know it.

You are not after anything. Guys can definitely be nice friends.

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Eh.


Or just stay with only ponies

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You'll get back on the horse... of dating humans. I don't know you, but I just believe it.

ugh. aspy.... the complexities of this situation are just ridiculous. i have dropped him and meant it. i went 1.5 months without speaking to him. he begs me back every time. i keep saying no to him now... but i really mean yes. (and in the back of my head i'm pretty sure he's dating someone else too) sometimes i feel like she deserves to know what a fricknugget he is.

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tigger

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for analogies sake- i'm not sprinting away. there's like a very weak and broken down barricade up. i'm just hiding as best i can.