re: I don't know what to do. I just want to end it

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Go fishing.

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I need to get back to doing this. Bass fishing was my absolute favorite thing to do growing up.

I think I need to slow down on the weekend partying. It's become so routine over the past 7 years to go out every weekend get fricked up chase women. And it was fun. But it's kinda like that Hank song "all my rowdy friends have settled down." It's no fun by yourself. You come to realize it wasn't about the partying or women that made it so fun. It was about being with your friends.

I just wished I had toned it down a few years earlier because now I feel no matter what I change in my life that the perception of me by others won't change. I could invite my friends fishing for example and actually that's what we would do but their wives won't let them go because it's me and they won't believe we will be fishing they think I'll take them to the casino or titty bar or something that.

So that's what really gets me. I want to change my life go back to doing more things like fishing, hunting, etc but it's no fun alone. And find a good woman to settle down with. So I need to change how I'm perceived, mostly by local single women and my friends wives so I can have a social life again that's enjoyable. But I'm not sure I can change that perception or how to do it....other than moving away completely but right now that's not a feasible option.

Hell i have been sitting at the bar alone at a local restaurant eating then drinkkng a few beers collecting my thoughts during this entire thread. Some random person, don't know who, paid for my entire 60 dollar tab. Wish I knew who, cause that literally just made my day cause they don't know how much that act of kindness just made me feel. I needed that