re: BULK support thread for those of us bulking

The past week has been a total mindfrick.

One minute I want to say frick it all and just say forget it, stop lifting and accept my fate as a weak dude with low muscle mass.

The next minute I want to get in the car and go to the gym and just pump out my stress.

It's almost like I am going through the 5 stages of grief. Bargaining, denying, depression, anger, etc.

One thing I didn't mention was my horomone levels. I saw an endocrinologist to get this work done as insulin is a hormone and therefore blood sugar falls into the practice of an endo. Not only was my blood sugar high but my horomones were all out of whack. My testosterone was on the low end of the scale for a male, my estrogen was on the high end and so on. I didn't mention this in my original post out of embarrassment. Not only is my impaired fasting glucose going to make making gains really hard, but my testosterone levels aren't what they need to be to support it as well.

It's depressing as hell. I tell every guy I know the best thing you can do for yourself is lift. Lifting is something that was my #1 hobby and something I became dedicated to. Yet here I am in a situation where I can't figure out how to make it work for me at the moment. frick this shite. I don't want to resign myself to a life of being a weak loser with no muscle mass and low T.