I cant tell if you are trolling or not. Like HH I think the fedora thing may have jumped the shark...but in case you are indeed telling the truth I do hurt for you man BUT here is some inspiration.

1) Find a Christian church. This life is only a flash of light in eternity. There are a lot of atheists on this board so be ready for a lot of rebuttals to this but I know God exists. The complexities of the human body plus nature itself is enough evidence for me but ive also experienced enough of the supernatural to know for sure.

On picking up women:
You are actually in a perfect place without even realizing it. You are in a zero-fricks-given state or at least should be. This means you have nothing to lose...strike out at the bar or on a tinder date...youve lost nothing but have gained experience. Do something bold but have it blow up in your face...its fine..youve lost nothing but only gained experience

Do something bold, heck Neil Strause was a 30 something single, balding loser who happened to be a good writer. He found some good wingmen, shaved his head and went out and started picking up women, some of them probably 5s or 6s...a few of them probably 7s 8s 9s.

Ive always struggled with the morality of sex before marriage(im not) but despite that I have. If you have not problem with that you shouldnt have any inhibitions..

A recent success story of mine: Went to a bar in Denver with some friends(women here are like the ones you describe..but on overdrive). I was literally wearing a backwards MAGA hat in a town full of leftist women(be bold)

Went all night with just one beer, was more or less just hanging out, talked to a few girls with no success. Right before bar closes(best time to pick up girls) I was sitting down and noticed two girls talking to each other..both cute. I picked one and waited for her to glance my way, when she did I just smiled and looked right at her, she reciprocated and looked away. I then literally grabbed her jacket, tugged on it, and told her "come talk to me im bored" She and her friend ended up paying for an uber to my place. I drove them home after that and hooked up with the girl I was into...went over a few days after that as well.

Not a story of tight game I know...but does show its not rocket science. This girl is easily a real life 7.5-8.

Your life isnt over dude, you just need a reboot and to grow a pair.