re: Do you have a life event or regret you just can't get over? (long)

Damn, man. Sorry to hear it.

It may not mean much coming from a stranger, but just want you to know you did the right thing going out and getting your bud that night. Nothing about what happened changed that you were a good friend to him that night by picking him up.

Deep down, in this dimension or the next, your buddy is grateful for you and understanding of where you both find yourselves. He'd likely be heartbroken to know the pain you're feeling.

All I can recommend is to make your life extraordinary. For him and for you. It's weird, but had this not happened, you wouldhave gone on living a normal, meaningless life like almost every single one of the rest of us reading your thread.

But you have the chance and the calling to live at a higher level and do things for him, yourself and others that you wouldn't have ever thought about before. All I can do is wish you luck and encourage you to do every little small thing you can to make it a net positive. That may sound ridiculous to hear, that you can make it a net positive... but you simply pursuing that does the job.

Good luck and prayers sent.