re: If you quit drinking, did you ever go through a lot of guilt?

I haven't, but am close to someone that has, and yes, it's a very common reaction. The alcohol deadens you to a lot of normal emotions. Once you are sober for a while, those emotions surface and feel much stronger, including guilt. I think it's a good thing.

It can drive some people back to drinking in an effort to deaden the feelings again. Hope you stay strong. If you do, I have a feeling things might change for the better in the long run.