re: Edit: they just found him.. He didn't make it.

Everyone I've talked today, said he would just call them out the blue to say he loved them. I've lost quite a few people over the years.. But none have hurt this bad. He always called and said " I love you bird". That's what they called me when I was little because of my bird chest. He was the only one who still called me that. Since he and my sister divorced about 12 years ago .. I don't think he really found his way. The only solid thing in his life were his immediate family and my niece, his daughter. I remember when I was young and I wanted a coolio cd and my mom wouldn't buy it for me. He bought it for me and slid it to me on the down low. Lol. It's those little things I remember. I remember fishing a pond with him and he hooked a big arse water moccasin with a buzz bait.. I wasn't looking and he reeled it up next to me, threw down the rod, and ran off laughing. He was a big ol teddy bear who loved everyone. I miss him so bad. I'm trying to not let it ruin my kids Christmas , but it's going to be tough. I still have a big arse playground from Santa I need to put together that I don't feel like touching. Hopefully some sleep tonight will heal some pain. Thanks again everybody for the prayers.