re: Just went to Easter Mass for the first time in many years

OP -

Serious reply here. Going to Easter mass seeking an enriching service is a significant first step. Easter in the Catholic Church is the culmination of Holy Week, which includes lengthy and emotional services on Thursday, Friday & Saturday (the Easter Triduum). However, easter services on Sunday can be chaotic at times due to many factors (sugar-infused children, exhausted priests, crowded and multiple services, etc).

I hate that you had this experience, and I have been in your shoes before. My advice is do not give up. If you are indeed Catholic, go to confession and try to attend daily mass (even if it is for a few days). This may seem over the top, challenging (and to some maybe miserable), but this is how I reconnected with my faith and God. I found God's grace in confession when I realized I was not judged for the kind of man I used to be. I found God in communion and community. When I stopped looking at mass as entertainment (or lack thereof) and instead saw it as Jesus present with me in the oldest form of Christian ritual, I finally "got it." My experience was supernatural and full of love, which I still cannot explain today.

This board is full of people who do not find convenience in church, and that is fine. I used to be like that, too. I certainly do not judge because I felt the same way. Please keep trying.