Good morning TexasTiger08
It’s 5:30 in the morning and your on my mind. A total stranger but somehow a message board connects us and others.

I just read your last post and the one thing that kept popping up is your usage of the words “feel”. “I feel like” or “ I feel that”, listen man feelings aren’t bad, you just can’t allow them to control you. I believe emotions and feelings are good, why because they show you where you are at and what your focus is on.
What I mean is this, sometimes I do not feel like going to work. It’s a very real feeling especially after 50. But the truth is I am so blessed to have a career. I do not struggle financially, why because I get to go to work and i have been working for a long time. But, if I focus on me and not see the blessing behind the ability, then I become a victim of my own attitude.

There have been times in my marriage where I just did not want to be married. But, i did not succumb to that temporary emotion and even last night went on a date with my wife of 20 years. I am so very blessed by my wife and she is my soulmate but there are times when I forget just how much she means to me.
I have to constantly battle my feelings in areas of work, relationships, finances and so many other areas. When i realize I am going down a certain path and my emotions are starting to stray and deceive me then I recognize it for what it is and get back on track with thought that are positive and pure, full of gratitude and thankfulness. I have been working on this for years and years because one time I also felt that my life had no hope and no value. I am so very thankful that I came to understand emotions and instead of submitting to negative and harmful thoughts, I now push against them with a positive picture of what my life is and what it will be. It takes practice. Lots of practice. Being a victim is just a habit of unhealthy thinking. You have to work out your emotional muscles. It takes time and training but just like the gym, you have to make an effort.
Bless you brother.
Let me know if you can do coffee.