re: What is the worst day you have ever had?

The day my 2-week old daughter died.

She was in NICU with CDH and at just past midnight on September 19, 2014 what little lungs she did have collapsed and the doctors gave us the "there's nothing more we can do" talk. We kept her on life support until my mom could get in from Texas. They took her off the machine and removed all the wires and tubes and we were able to hold her for the first and only time.

She died in our arms and almost exactly 4 years later, it still feels like a dream.

We stayed in the room with her for a while and then when we couldn't hold our bodies up anymore, we left.

It's such a strange feeling to go into a hospital with a pregnant wife and then just walk out 2 weeks later without a baby. There's really no preparation for that scenario.

Anyway, we are managing now and we have an amazing 7 year old boy who keeps us on our toes, but it's hard not to think about how different our lives would be had she lived.

I pray I never experience a day worse than that. I hope I've paid my dues.