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I do think it's a disservice to people if they act like nothing is wrong with the way their brain is wired (be it genetics or learned behavior, or however that issue came to be) and 'man up'. There's power in acknowledging deficincies and working to improve them, be it a food addiction or any sort of addiction.

Please take this with the spirit that its said, because I dont want you to feel like I'm bandwagon jumping on you.
I admire your ability to be transparent about your failures in here, even when people give you shite about it, but a lot of the time I feel like your failure is set up before you begin, because of your attitude towards dieting and food in general, and to some extent exercise as well. I love you, but when you speak it feels like you have a built in excuse before you try in case it isnt successful, and as a fat girl the one thing I know for certain is that once your desire for change becomes greater than anything else, your relationship to food will cease to be a thing. You have to change your mindset, and want the person you see inside yourself more than you want anything else, and only then will success come. because until you really reach that place in your life you will continue to make yourself a victim to your thoughts, wants and desires.
Change hurts, physically, mentally, emotionally. If you're not there yet, then that's okay, but you have to own that you're not there yet, instead of using phrases that a therapist uses because they want you to see things without hurting your feelings. That's the way they handle things, and to most degrees successfully, but over such a long period of time, if you want change you have to grow, and risk and hurt, and let your brain play catch up to your will and determination. It WILL adapt, because that's what humans do best. when you hit the spot where your determination is fed up with your attitude you'll recognize the growth, and be proud of the work, and the pain will be worth it. you just have to get fed up with yourself. Good luck!