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Yea but I've visited cities. My style and attitude is straight delta to the core. I don't feel comfortable anywhere else I love it here ReplyOptionsTop 10

FWIW I moved to a much more rural area in January of 2015 and haven't looked back and have very much the same type of style and attitude as you

I also had very much the same drinking habits as you (not so much drugs), not anywhere close to every day but when I did drink I DRANK. I finally quit drinking for good back in July and I have never looked back, unquestionably one of the best decisions I've ever made but I don't go around saying "I'll never drink again"

1. It's setting yourself of to disappoint yourself which will lead you to being mad at yourself which will just lead to more issues
2. If you tell ppl that if they see you drinking, even if it's just one beer and that's all you had, all they'll talk about is how "ohh Wishn's off the wagon" like you are drinking all day everyday with no restraint
3. Ppl suck

Anyways kinda back on topic as far as the friend thing, it kinda sounds like your friends aren't very good friends. A few of my friends have gotten married and while we don't hangout as much as we use to (who does after college?) partly bc I'm two hours away from most of them I could still call any of my good friends and they'd be there for me as quick as 5 years ago. We all use to party and frick whores just as much as you did but I still think if their wives tried to chastise them for being there for me they'd explain to her that they can be there for me without doing any of that shite we used to do

I think you are just going through a normal stage of life in the transition from college years to the 30s, it happens to all of us and some deal with it Better than others. My dad passed away in April of 2016 so I think that actually may have helped force me to reality a little more than if that hadn't have happened terrible as it was.

I wish I had some definitive advice to give you with the exact words needed but all I can really tell you is that the issues we face never seem as large after the fact as they do during so a month, year, two years from now you'll prolly look back and think wow I was stupid for thinking that was such a big deal. Use that knowledge to help calm your stress in the present.

In the meantime, find stuff that fulfills you and you can enjoy. It sounds like you are like me in that the catfish farming (for me it's grain farming) is the thing you know of right now that you truly enjoy and that's a major plus for us cause we can make money doing it.

Anyways, I'm more familiar than you might know with the whole land and business tying you down thing and I'm always here if you need anything