re: LNST Rag may or may not be dead, Darth was dead, the next one better stick

I mean...I won't. I relive it over and over and over.
Every goddamn time I hear a train whistle the scene plays through my mind.
I drown myself in whisky but it doesn't help.
I make it through the day because I have to but it's this day that hits the hardest.
When you are supposed to be your brother's keeper...
I still blame myself even if there's nothing I could have done because certainly there's something I should have could have done.