re: What do you think happens when you die?

For me it's not the actual part of dying that gets me. It's knowing that one day I won't be able to wake up and see a smiling face. I won't be able to watch a sunrise, or a sunset. I won't be able to laugh with friends, and cry with my family. These thoughts are literally so crippling to me that I have to fall asleep watching TV, or playing on my phone so I don't lay awake at night thinking of it all. I know we all die, but i'm not ready for it. Maybe when it's my time I will be, but not right now. Sometimes at night I catch myself thinking about it and it's an instant lump in the throat. I try curling up next to my wife for reassurance but it doesn't work. Thankfully she understands the difficulties I have with sleeping right away. I just wish there was some way to circumvent these thoughts and get them to go away.