re: Is there someone from your past

Yes. Not the one that I "loved", but another girl. She was cute and in good shape and I liked her. Dated her while she was in a serious relationship with someone else. Never screwed her and suspected her situation but didn't know till after we stopped dating. It was a weird relationship, but she was hot, and sweet, and wife material. She also went to an Ivy League grad school.

The girl I came closest to saying "I love you" is now a fricking not good person in my book. I'd rather be lied too and shite then what I went through.