re: When You Feel Like You're Lost In Life

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If you're really feeling like this, talk to someone, anyone. I've been there, it's dark, I know but it doesn't last forever. Is there anything right now that brings you joy in life? If not, it's okay.

If you need someone to listen, I'm here.

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Honestly, not like it used to. I used to enjoy playing tennis but I haven't played in almost a year now. I used to love nature but as I've gotten older I just have no tolerance for being outside in the middle of July. Traveling is probably the one thing that does still make me happy. Being in a different city away from regular life, it somewhat reminds me of what it feels like to actually be living and not just surviving.

I'm worried if I talk to someone they're just going to want to put me away in some mental hospital or that they'll contact family and then it'll become a disaster. My brother in law lost a brother who ended their life and I'm sure if I did the same it would bring back some awful memories for him. I don't want my family involved in this. My father wouldn't understand and do the whole "toughen up" BS, my mother would be devastated and blame herself, my sister would be confused and my brother in law would have to relive all sorts of terrible memories.